i kind of have e mood to really type a long post.
everything about e trip, the days that have passed.
some freakish people perked me up from nonsenses.
making me kind of crazy, typing simultanuously.

TRACKBACKS;

2411o6, friday.
went to airport, boarded e plane & blahs.
didn't really tell anybody that i was leaving.
just that i made a clear post in my blog, that's all.
nobody else know. only if you'd ask or something?
sms or call me during e days & you'll know.
checked-in e hotel & all.
best hotel thr lahrs, e tallest one; that's it.
had seafood buffet for dinner in e hotel. lols.

2511o6, saturday.
followed e tour guide for half day trip.
meanwhile waiting for uncle to travel from myanmar.
we took this speed boat around nohrs, touring about.
it's kind of windy, cooling, fun lahrs.
dhen shopped around e wholesales centre.
bhot tons of thing. went e platinium mall to eat.

2611o6, sunday.
continue all that shopping, went e renown MBK.
crowded. bhot nothing! stuff were all too common.
so went back to e platinium mall & wholesales centre.
bhot alotalotalot things also lahrs. haaahs.
night, ordered food to our room.

2711o6, monday.
uncle went off early back to myanmar lehrs.
left with us. so we went to e airport after breakfast.
waited & waited. continue shopping at e airport. haaahs.
3-5h on plane. lols. air turbulance?
so tired thru e days lahrs. lack of sleep.
yet, when i'm back in singapore.
i still have to entertain some people.
all that quarrels they're wishing for. always.
making me feel a total despair out of all e quarrels.
time & again, giving me these troubles.

2811o6, tuesday.
went to meet my cousins at jurong point.
( eileen, justin & austin )
slack around waiting for my aunt.
dhen went to their house & stay overnight.
minor quarrels.

2911o6, wednesday.
woke up early, play board games.
went out to meet friends.
olivia, kailun & liukang.
went home first to do some stuff.
meanwhile waiting for kailun to wake up, prepare & all.
supposed to meet at batok mrt.
end up we were all taking e same bus. lols.
mrt-ed to jurong. went enter.
watched happy feet. quite nice.
e singing. haaahs. cute cans.
















movie ended, we sneak into another theatre.
ended up we were watch some M18 movie, tenicious D.
kind of funny, but filled with american english.
too profound for us.
just the fuck & fuckings were clear for us.
left before e movie ended, we couldn't understand hahas.
liukang went off early.
so we mrt-ed back to batok.
went to arcade played touch screen.
then mrt-ed to jurong point to buy e tidbits,
for my dumbdumb cousins. LOLS.
mrt-ed back to jurong again,
wait for eileen cousin to end her class.
went home in her mom's car.
stayed her house again.

3o11o6, thurday.
woke up quite late lahrs.
played with bryan cousin. hahas,
naughty boy lahrs. snaps snaps.
making blogs for my cousins, troublesome.
waited for uncle to come, fetched home.

very busy these day.
didn't have much time to really be online.
do some touch-ups for my friendster.
editting pictures for darling sisters.
templating tickets for a ... primary school gathering day.
designing poster for postalconnect.
busybusybusy! & i don't get paid for all these! LOL
1oo% confirm i'm not going for any chalets till 12dec.
don't have e time, so have fun alrights. sorry.
it's kind of clash with my timings, inform me too late lehrs. haaahs.

did medicure again! weeets~
black&white paw prints. cute! haaahs.
gonna' do pedicure some other time.
strawberries are gone lehrs. sobs.
anyways they aren't that nice.
black&white paw prints nicer. LOLS

520, 490.
but my reasons stated deep in my heart. i try not.
( it's e past now) you're out of my mind forever.
& i can say daringly i love you no more. no longer.
520, 490 aren't meant for you anymore.
you aren't fit to have it.
if i ain't wrong, it's meant for him only. (:

still i didn't feel like posting into details of my trip.
just tagboard replies, friend request & testimomo will be replied.
sorry for not replying certain sms & answering phone calls.

TAGBOARD REPLIES:

jiaxin; LOLS! thot you've forgotton me! haaas. thanks too.
anyways, i did tag your blog frequent lehs. haaas.
just that your friends always spam! shit asses. lols. takecares.
rmb to link me ahrs. hahas. miss ya lots too. <3s

jowytan; hello juniors. lols. yeas didnt reply. sorry.
cos wasn't in town lahrs & was lazy to do so. sorry ahrs.
hahas. you'll regret for life. don't come to my school!

eileen; lols, called you liao hahas. okays.

joanne; RELINKED-

xiiao sharon; loveeees sharon yibeizi 1314 xDD

jeannette; heehs thanks miss you lots!
you takecares too. love you 184.

xiiao sharon; miss you alot too nehrs heeehs.

devilx; relink you lehrs takecares.

BACK!

alrights, back from my holiday. lols.
& dumbass-es; many ppl called and smsed.
stupid ehs, wasted so much money on all these. =.='''
anyways, really had fun with cousins. LOLS.
didn't felt like posting into detail, so i shan't.
will update some other days, when i feel like it. (:
just too tired, too lazy, too lost.
back home, first thing was all that quarrels again.
so sick&tired cans. quarrelling&all.
I'M JUST TOO TIRED, TOO LAZY.
smses won't be replied,
testimomos won't be replied,
friend requests won't be accepted,
tags won't be replied.
cos' i'm simply so lazy, sick&tired. really.
phone calls might still answer, depends.
i'm just ain't in any mood to do all these,
gotta' settle some major problems for the current.
before i'll do all these replies.
blogging might resume but perhaps not. =.=

presents for everybody, anybody; whoever you are.
if you want, tell me lohrs. surely there'd be a gift.
just ask :DD present for everybody!
tell me thru friendster, msn, sms, phone call or tags. ((:

I CAN'T WAIT FOR TML LEHRS!
just back from westmall.
went to e library nahrs.
borrowed some engineering drawings book.
not for myself, obviously lahrs.
help my brother borrow for his studies lahrs. dumb.
super busy lately, friendster-ing , editting of photos.
super tired lahrs. always sleeping in e morning. lols.
anyways, i'd like to have some inspiration for my poster.
peeeps! give me some inspiration please.
it's a packing christmas sales poster, for TWO dumb companies.
ideas please!!! thanks.
don't ask what company, sorry; unable to reveal.
rained just now, when i was at westmall.
& i could swear i was super childish!
super uber childish lahrs. haaaas. lame-ness.
i ain't gonna' mention anymore. LOLS.

i'm gonna' miss everybody!
my sisters, darlings, brothers, aiais, keaiis,
baobeiis, besties, lovelies, sweetiepies,
haopengyous, pengyous, cousins, precious.
practically, EVERYBODY!

looked thru my album just now haaas.
saw my longlost friend in one of e photos.
lols. she changed alot lehrs. sobs.
not in contact anymore lehrs.
now she also so famous lehrs haaas.
anyways forgot her name also lehrs. xD
look thru all my cert. so many diplomas. lmaos.
found out: I WASN'T SMILING IN ANY PHOTOS.
lols. i nvr smiled in any. haaaas.
unless it was secret shot. weirdo. =.=

it's PSLE releasing day, or whatever you say. lols.
cheer up to my fellow juniors,
who didn't get their desired score.
& congratulations to those who has gotton,
unexpected scores. haaaaaaas.
wondering how much my cousin got. lols.
only tml then will know. sobss lahrs.
this year all slack alot lahrs,
top is only 281 & lowest is 81.
cnt imagine it sia. haaaaaaas. slacking so much.
nanyang didn't score so well this year,
ouhhs buck up juniors. lols.
mainstream was leading first haaas.
GEPs lost lahrs. omfg. lose to mainstream lohrs.
highest was 277, cnt bleaf lohrs.

had fries with karyan jie! haaas.
she's eating in her house; so am i! lols.
I SUPER UBER HAPPY, i think.
yet; I'M STILL MAD! =.=
think i've saw ah long, he's driving.
ain't sure if it's him anyways.
he changed alot lahrs, just caught a glimpse only.
think he change job lehr bahrs.
it's been a longlong time since i've seen him. LOLS.
I'M RAGING! wakakas-
super uber mad lahrs cans. stupid.
don't give me your stupid attitude okays!
let me put this in e front,
don't give me your fucking attitude;
cos i don't owe you anything at all!
it's not i wanna' care or what alrights.
i don't wanna' give a fucking damn about anything that you're doing!
madmadmadmad! madness!
only shernette jie knows everything well & best!
tml's is e last day lehrs! (:

i've decided to re-post.
so unpleased with my previous post;
that i get so fedup.
till i have to keep publishing&publishing.
until; i find my liking post!
was super mad, super worried!
& it ended up like SHIT!
was just my pure stupidity. LOLS
anyways, thanks toto&shernette jie.
thanks for being thr when i really need help.
thanks karyan jie too.
she was the one who accompany me thru all night.
without fail; she's always seeming to be by my side.
thanks alot. really. & also;
not forgetting my sweetiepie!
thanks for your encouragement tonight. xD
thanks so much for really calming me down from FIRE!
haaaas. felt sososo much better now.
RELAXATION, my first choice. LOLS.

{ do i look like i give a fucking damn? }
absolute NO to that! out of my world! lalaaas~

i did post for the past few days anyways,
i don't mind admitting it lahrs. lols.
it's just that i've decided to save as draft instead of publishing.
even thou i did, for quite sometime.
just some highlights & trackbacks for the days.

BACKTRACK;

saturday,
had tuition & blahs.
common talk with olivia sister & blahs.
didn't watch grudge two due to tiredness.

sunday,
did blogskins for eileen cousin.
editting of photos for yurikie jie & mavis lovely.
went over to grandparents house around 5.
discussion of our holiday plans.
planning way before hand. lols. xD
played heart-attack and police&murderer.
it's fun alrights. haaaas.
my eyes are so pain now. xD
dhen played cheat, till we could sleep.
anyways, judith cousin going to taiwan in a few hours time?
BON VOYAGE?!?! lols.

P.S. amendments of blogskin.
P.P.S. change of song.

days has been passing by, many days.
yet; no changes at all.

INSOMNIA , INSOMNIA , INSOMNIA.
suck out lahrs, indeed. =.=''
anyways, somethings so wrongwrong.
way so wrong now alrights.
it's too far off. lols. terribly bad things.
quarrelsquarrelsquarrels, one after another.
so sick&tired alr lohrs. PEACEE!
have been going around provoking ppl, haaas.
kind of insane, wondering whats wrong either.
cos i, myself, ain't clear what i'm doing either.
just hope this would put an end to everything.
anyways, terrible mood for days down e road.
need time to really put myself down&relax.
anybody's willing to go down to jurong library with me?
it's e place whr i could find my peaceful self.
relax in where i should belong;
compared to this unruly world outside e quietness.
silence&meditation, what i require most.
so just shutup, give me my silence alrights. lols.
anyways, i'm beginning to hate her once again.
looking at all her entries in her blog,
so dumb so emo. alrights, she won't think that way either.
cos all of us has got different point of views.
trying so hard to not hate her again lahrs, aiyos.
looking simple yet so tough to do.
peace&silence. i have no idea how i could really talk to her anymore.
everything change lehrs,
nothings e same anymore. ):

; when i'm determined,
please don't return back anymore.
cos' if you don't know,
that sweet tongue of yours;
could have hurt me deep donw inside.
please let me forget you alrights.

i'm really getting so fretup,
with all that talks&nonsenses that you're giving me.
it's hard to accept you know.
stop it once & for all alrights. thanks you. (:
PEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACE!

ONCE AGAIN, i'm wrong.
i was so wrong.
now that i realised; i needed more time.
it's still not so easy to forget you,
to clear you out of my mind.
you're always back whenever i'm so determined-
you've cause my plan to fail time&again.
why? just leave my world once & for all,
i'll really clean you out of my mind.
& we remain friends once again;
in the near future, we meet up (:

it's damndamn meaningful song by 光良.
every word, every sentence; it's so meaningful.
worthwhile to really give it a chance & hear it. (:

你笑说风好大
没说两句话
泪就像雨落下
好好哭一哭有没有带走
眼里那颗沙
看着你在挣扎
还是爱着他
说什么话都多余啊
爱情像个长假
再美的回忆
结束了还是要回家
不管是苦涩还是甜蜜
忘了他他是个傻瓜
他不值得你
还为他流泪牵挂
有太多好男人是你的选择啊
想再看到你笑的灿烂如花
忘了他我的妹妹啊
虽然他也是
我最喜欢的朋友啊
我打算从此再也不见也不理会他
我们把他忘了吧

你说你不怪他
你还是会想他
对爱你已不再有想法
成长的痛苦原来有那么多的代价

i'm so tired thru e entire day.
lols, i'm happy yet still sad. xD
went jec for e day. for movies again!
went with eileen & judith cousin.
didn't went nanyang for e graduation day,
awwws. so sad lahrs. missed it. hais.
cos it's like starting at 3pm lohrs. so late.
if go dhen have to miss my movie,
i'd rather watch e movie dhens ((:
watched material girl anyways.
it's worthwhile lahrs. super uber nice!
hilary duff & haylie duff, tanzie & ava.
super uber pretty alrights.
spokesperson for Marchetta Cosmetics.


















it's super nice, you've all gotta' watch it!
e girls learn what's life all about.
what's life without money,
found out e talents that they have. weeets! just so nice.

after e movie walked around lohrs,
bhot a purpur crown ring. nice!
& we went to take neoprints! it nice!
okays, e pose were awful. haaas.
but it's uber funfunfun!
cousins for life! weeeeets.
dhen went library, borrowed four books.
it's super crazy of me okays.
a total of 1600 pages. lmaos.
one of it has 800 page lohrs. ki siao.
it's about literature anyways. nice books alrights.
we spent an hour there lahrs.
found so many interesting books,
but we all end up choose 3 or 4 books only.
went to ljs to end our hunger there,
nice crumbs i've got. it's lots!
dhen we went home lehrs. awwws.
e day ended so fast.
neoprints, movie, ljs & library.
we're gonna' go out again soon!

i've decided not to go out from tml lehrs.
heees, i'll try to stop myself.
don't tempt me, peoples. xD
i need time to really rest lehrs.
have been sleeping few hours a day,
having medicines day & night.
it's awful cans. tiredness.
i'm just so tired.
requires lots of rest to replenish my energy.
going thru a diet now too.
lose weight! oh lose weight please.
won't be eating for week from now!
nobody can tempt me! muahahas.
truely, i'm insane now!
only olivia & hweekoon sisters know why.
hahas. really, it's driving me mad! haaas.

I NOW ANNOUNCE, I HATE MY FAMILY!
THEY SUCK ALRIGHTS!
SO KPO! EVERYTHING ALSO WANT INTERFERE.
ASK ME & YOUO'LL KNOW WHAT I MEAN!
DON'T BE SUCH A KPO LAHRS. ARGHS!

lols. one hour later ~
quarrels end liao. haaas. peace again. =.=''

super exhuasted today cans.
my muscles are all aching.
but it's damn fun alrights.
ytd's fun, so is today lahrs. lol.
& tml will also be another fun day for me.
ytd with baobeii meimeis & dumb mei-fu.
today with baobeii sister.
tml with baobeii cousins. weeeets.
watched dead or alive & flushed away today.
haaas, it's damn nice cans.



























dead or alive is so damn nice lahrs.
e characters so cool cans.
their skills are so powerful lohrs.
& e host is so cunning and despicable lohrs. urghs.
princess kasumi is chiochiochio! loves her hair.
christie, helena & tina are chio too (:
lols. happy ending. heees.


















flushed away is so damn funny lohrs.
e slugs sing till so nice. laugh like siao.
kept crapping in e cinema hahas.
so romantic. hahas.

in between e two movies,
went to e arcade. lols.
played like siao lahrs hahas.
dhen saaw qian yu inside there.
she wear so cool leas. xDD
super tired after all e activities lohrs.
before e movies still went to school buy books.
wahh, so heavy sia. haaaas.
lucky got olivia sister accompany me. (:
thanks wors. teeeheees.

it's just totally a busy day can.
just finished replying all my testimomos also.
haaaas. tml still need go nanyang. sobs.
tiredness. need lots of rest! (:
I'M SO SICK & TIRED OF YOUR NONSENSE ALREADY! lols.

; nobody will know since it's all shattered.
thank you, give me more time please. (:
thanks for all e times being by my side,
it has come to an end lehrs. leave by silence.
friends still (: lols. neither you'd know who you're.
haaas, might let you know when time is right.
oh peeps, don't make wild guesses it'd be you.
hahas, cos it might not. lmaos. jkjk. xDD

just back from seeing doctor, & watching movies.
was raining like crazy lahrs,
dhen went to e clinic.
omg, so long queue cans.
waited for an hour. lols
got my mediciine & all.
infection again lohrs. bleahhs. hates.
dhen came home, rushed & all.
dhen went to return vcd,
at baobei house there.
rushing all e way lahrs,
cab over to westmall to meet eunice.
saw all, dhen bhot movie tickets.
waited for huifen meimei lahrs.
there's me, eunice meimei, huifen meimei,
weiming & jack. five of us.
so we went in cinema at 3plus,
when it starts at 3. lols.
practically, i didnt really watch e movie lohrs.
it's like crap lahrs, laughing thru out.
cos of eunice meimei.
& e white guy. lols. nonsence sia.
nvm, will watch again.
& ohs, we watched grudge 2.

it's quite scary lahrs. but we kept laughing.
cos it's funny lols.
ppl around all screaming like siao. haaas.
anyways, i wanna' watch again lahrs.
after went arcade awhile,
huifen meimei always so kelian dehrs.
dhen ps olivia & hweekoon sister,
sorry leas. hais.
we went to library after dhat & all.
search quickly for eunice book,
went back to look for my sisters;
they've gone home lehrs! bleaps.
oh well nvm lahrs, dhen cab home lohrs.
since i was sososo tired. haaaas.
busy & tired day lohrs, keep rushing.
& end up, i didnt buy my books at all.
sian lohrs, anyways i wanna' go watch movie again.
anybody wanna' go? lols.

advertisment for e day:
dear friends, anybody interested to go watch;
some kind of magic show with me mahrs? lols.
from yanling sweet monster. heees. (:
& oh, can some kind soul;
please help to find out who's faking toto in fs.
e person is so incorrigible lahrs. yucks.
please report e faker, who's possessing her pictures,
& editting her pictures to some censor pictures.
please help out ((:

hais, here i am getting anouther survey.
from michiko!! lols. thanks (:

name 11 person:
(random order)
#1.jolyn sister
#2.eunice meimei
#3.huifen meimei
#4.olivia sister
#5.hweekoon sister
#6.sebastian didi
#7.sherilyn meimei
#8.rowena bestie
#9.eileen cousin
#10.weiming pengyou
#11.amelia dardar
( all is latest chat with) - msn, sms, fs, calls. (:

01. how did you meet 10?
in secondary school =.=

02. what would you do if u have nvr meet 6?
uhrs, don't know. loss of a baobeii didi lohrs.

03. have you ever seen 4 cry?
yahrs, alot of time bahrs.

04. what will you do if 6 and 2 are dated?
uhrs. wish them last longlong lohrs. haas.

05. do you think 1 is pretty?
yups. my baobeii jiejie leas.

06. tell me something about 11.
she understands me best! (:

07. how do you know 8?
there was a small misunderstanding at e beginning,
& dhen she became my bestie.=.= lols

08. would you ever date with 5?
lols, i ain't a les.

09. what's 7 favourite colour?
i don't know. lols. black?

10. what would you do if 2 confess he/she likes you?
happy lohrs, haaas. since she's my baobeii meimei. lols.

11. fact about 9:
she's my cousin.

12. who is 6 going out with?
don't know, he nvr said.

13. who is 5 to you?
a great sister!

14. would you ever live with 11?
yes! i want to! but it's impossible.

15. is 2 single?
i think so bahrs.

16. how much does 3 mean to you?
she's my baobeii meimei,
what do you expect? lols.

17. what do you think of 1?
she my bestest dajie lohrs.

18. what's the best about 8?
she understand me well.

19. what do you dislike about 10?
uhrs, can say mehs?
later his laopo come kill me. lols opps =x

20. 11 pple dhat you want them to do this survey:
#01. eileen cousin
#02. huifen meimei
#03. joanne pengyou
#04. joey junior
#05. emily twinnie
i dont know alr lahrs
just anybody lahrs.

okays, finally finish e survey liaos. haaaas. (:

I'M STRESS UP! urghs.
i'll be crapping thru this post.
cos i don't even know what i'm thinking.
爱; 如果能够让他们快乐, 我不后悔受伤的人是我.
just posting with all my feelings out,
not exactly all. hais. SAD!
knowing the truth, really hurts alot.
so if you know e truth would hurt,
it's wise not knowing e truth.
sick&tired of it lehrs.
don't give me your nonsence anymore!
shit! i'm crapping lols.
i love EMILYN without the N. lols.
EMILYEMILYEMILY! haaas.
lols, smsed her last night. teeheees. funfunfun!
it's like a long lost friend. lalaaas.
i'm so mad, yeas i am!
sadsadsad, =.=
just a crapping post, with lots of mixtures.
save me out of this fiery pit would you?
damn restless lahrs. dont know why either.
no mood! fret up! urghs. moodless.
crapcrapcrap! it's crap&shit.
like means like;
don't like means don't like.
everything cnt be force in anyway.
uh-huhs, it's so true isn't it? lols.
hmms, i have no mood to post.
it's all for e day, & before i forget.
it's my baobeii sebastian didi dehr birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEBASTIAN DIDI !

paiseh holiday now, nvr buy birthday present for you.
lols name anything, i try buy for you lahrs.
if you see until this post lohrs. haaas.

qoute for the day:
pamper me with all the love you can give, would you?

surveys&surveys from eileen cousin. lols.
wondering if one day would e surveys go one round,
& that once again back to me? i suppose it would.
just like chain mails! & bleaps.
chain mails are truly irritating lahrs.
send me only if it's truly interesting lahrs.
dont give me the creepy ones. it's scary!
or else i'm always bullying my family lols.
flooding them with chain mails,
they are the only ones who wont scold me.
geees. & hearing my sister squabbling at me daily,
for all that freaky chain mails i've sent.
teeheees* sorry for. no one else to turn to lehrs.
yet, it's CREEEEEEPY! (:
wellwell, backback. the SURVEY! uh-ohhhs.
torturous. same peeeples will be tagged. for sure. lols.

THE THIRTY QUESTIONS!

#1. Are you a chinese or english freako?
mid-way. loveees both equally.

#2. If time is going to stop; what will you possibly do for that time?
i will walk up to the guy i love,
& admit my feelings for him.

#3. Prefer a playpool or playground?
both.

#4. Do you usually gossip about others; or being gossiped?
both bahrs. who doesn't gossip.
& who weren't be gossip, or used as a topic. lols.

#5. Do you like simple or complicated stuffs?
simple yet complicated. geees.

#6. Do you tackle numbers better; or alphabets?
both, equally. haaas.

#7. What makes you pissed off?
practically most of the things,
especially ppl interrupting my daily life; like my maid!

#8. How's your childhood?
busy lahrs, running for shots & errands daily.
it's tiring & stressful lahrs for a small kid.
but i simply love everything, the albums of mine.

#9. Do you have inspiration without perspiration?
nahhs. i'm not that perfect yet.
to get inspirations, perspiration is always required.

#10. Do you think 24 hours is too long, short or just okay?
too long for school days&holidays.
too short for trips & happy moments.
just okay for sleeping time. heees.

#11. Would you judge people by their appearance?
sometimes bahrs. or maybe most.

#12. What is attractive in your eyes?
nothing. =.=

#13. Do you like the day or night, explain why.
night bahrs, could enjoy e breeze. stare ino the skies.
loooking at the bright little stars around.

#14. Do you treasure stuff that you own, or you have insatiable desires?
yahrs. mostly bahrs. but some i take them as trash. (:
what i desire most, is what i cherish most.
cos i know they're hard to get yet i got it.
it take more than just treasure it. but alot of time to get it.

#15. If your computer just hanged up; with a long long document not being saved; how will you react?
i'll go really madmadmad.
cos i've experience it million of times.
but still i get used to it.
now that my computer won't hang so easily lehrs. (:

#16. Do you believe in miracles?
yahrs. sometimes. & it does come true.
when i really wished well for it. it's lovely.

#17. Do you often tend to forget about the past; or trying hard to do so?
What are you trying to forget?
yeas. but i dont wanna' forget e past.
yet something in the past, i wanna' forget.
it's everything about this person,
which i dont wanna' mention.
since i'm determined to forget, i won't mention anymore.

#18. In your mind, why are there colours?
cos i can still see the beautiful world,
& rmb all of it's wonderful colours.

#19. Have you ever pity those who are real pitiful; and shed tears for them; etc?
yahrs. but i dare not shed tears.
i really pity them, & try to help them. heees.
those selling tissues, donations card ...

#20. Describe yourself as in attitude:
suck out. terribly bad at times. impaitient.

#21. Do you suddenly lose the grasp of hope to survive as yet?
yahrs. just now. sometimes.
it's just gives me the urge to, yet i don't want.
cos i have wishes yet to be fulfilled & helped out.
there's too many things to be waited.

#22. Give 3 advantages when you get to live:
i know there're true sisters around.
i can see how beutiful the world is.
i get to know my lovely baby. (: lols.

#23. What is your ambition in life?
currently i wanna' be a designer.
interior designer or fashion designer. heees.
too high lehrs bahrs. but still it's e longest wan.

#24. Do you believe in horoscope etc?
yahrs. sometimes. it could be real true.
perfectly right at times. haaas.

#25. Describe music in your life:
relaxing, enjoyable. slow & beuatiful.
just like how it goes with the taste of red wine.

#26. Which country you would like to go:
there's too many. japan, korea, hongkong, goldcoast.
practically anywhr would do,
so long as i'm able to go with my love ones.

#27. What do you think blogging is about?
one that allows ppl to update their daily lives.
just like a diary & yet it's known to thousands of ppl.
you wont know who's reading at anytime.

#28. What kind of style you are trying to get hold off?
the terribly love that's hurting everyone.
the wars thats killing millions of ppl.
crapping again =x

#29. When you fail a test:
will mugg harder the next time.

#30. Pass this to 9 friends; for them to get it done :
huifen meimei
eunice meimei
jolyn sister
joanne penggyou
joeytan junior
uhrs. anybody interested bahrs. (:

finally ended the survey.
time to do blogskin for eileen cousin.
oh-oh, it's finally a busy night. still a night. ):
hais, cant attend e poolside party tml.
sobsob. i wanna' go lahrs. aikss.
oh well, nvm dhens. teehees.

qoute for the day:
爱; 如果能够让他们快乐, 我不后悔受伤的人是我.

urghs. i'm so bored cans.
finish making a skin for eileen cousin again.
still i'm bored once again. =.=
still couldn't find one to accompany me to the movies,
together with e sweet couples. lols.
i don't want to be the lightbulb!
can some kind soul accompany me? lols.
anyways last night, still didn't manage to buy my phone.
sobs. instead daddy bhot N73.
oh, wtf. it's okay lahrs. he wanted to give me.
but i declined. lols. didn't like it alot.
my sister wanted it so might as well give it to her.
haaas. it's better isn't it.
i still don't know what phone i like now lahrs.
3250 is out of stock! no more stock getting in.
so great lahrs. hate it mans. awwws.
i shall consider if i should take N73. lols.

went westmall last night to buy e phone.
rujing saw me! oh wtf. lols.
anyways didn't bother to see him either.
dhen went mayin chinese crusine to eat.
e food is alright. so bland. lols.

oh, i'm so craving for apple strudel now!
can somebody go down to bukit timah & buy for me?
lols. please. i'm so craving for it.
haaas. my maid's a lunatic!
she's mad can. fucking irritating.
scream her lungs out at my ear! wtf.
finally she's off! & my ear's bursting.

i'm so depress. i don't know why.
keep thinking of e past lahrs.
went to this particular blog. read&read.
it's sweet. hope they'll last long. (:
from gan-laopo can become real-laopo. envy her.
she's a lucky ger. haaas. xDD
there's so many quarrels out now.
just too many that i dont wish to mention any.
so tired lehrs, really.
yet, i dont want to run away from all these.
i've gotta' face it one day uhrs. hais.
requires one who could really make me happy,
laugh & console me. everything at e same time.
cause i'm really sad. thot of too many things lehrs.
yet, i NEVER hated her at all. it's a NONO!
aikss. it's referring to my gan-mei. that's all.
now all i could really do is, wish them last long.
seeing them happy jiu enough lehrs (:
if you know it's you, let me know too.

since i'm like effin' bored now,
i've decided; i shall might as well just post all e events,
that ocurred on tuesday, our bbq. lols.
backtrack, tuesday.
morning woke up, prepared.
foood & all was prepared by my maid.
lols, had breakfast. went downstair, took cab.
cab-d to eunice meimei e hse.
went up to her hse, waited for;
mei & mei-fu, gor & sao zi. lols.
dhey came up took all e stuff together.
we went over to e taxi-stand.
& it's fucking full of ppl cans.
we waited damn long at there lahrs. chit chat-d.
hees, dhen me, eunice meimei, mei&saozi cab-d to there first.
lols. reach there still so early lohrs.
eunice meimei was bored, & she play-d e sand herself.
huifen meimei went walking herself. =.=
so i accompanied eunice meimei.
play-ed & all lahrs. damn sian cans.
e boys went to mac to eat, so stoopid lahrs.
so we started e fire OURSELVES!
yeas, just e three of us; lols. ain't we smart.
haaas, we seek help from others.
huifen meimei is so enthu can. go round asking.
had fire lehrs, played lohrs.
dhen e boys came back, took turn to bbq.
waited for sherilyn. dumb ass.
finally she came, went for a walk lahrs.
e lovey dovey went DATING!
awwws, how ridiculous isn't it.
making us all filled with goosebumps.
but they're a sweet couple. lols.
one my mei, one my gor, one my sao zi another my mei-fu.
haaas. hope they'll last longlong. (:
played with water & all lahrs.
me & sherilyn was like climbing mountains?!?
lols, walk round e reef, niceee!
i was like so freaked out by a shell lahrs.
inside it's still alive cans! wtf.
it's damn scary, could even swear for it.
& i was fucking wet by a huge wave.
i didn't notice it lahrs. dumb asses.
drank that saltish water too. eeeww.
FIRST to sample it. EEEWWS.
dhen was addicted to this dog trainer.
he's great. taught us lots of things.
but he crapped shit! haaas.
he assumed that ... is my brother.
lols ridiculous lahrs. cnt say e name or i'll die.
haaas. it's so nonsence, but comic. hahas.
all went into e sea, left with me & sherilyn mei.
we ain't wet! weeets*
huifen mei so poor thing lahrs. heees.
pity her, but surely she had fun.
eunice meimei also being bullied by all.
lols. everybody was enjoying!
what a waste, rujing & afi left early.
& they missed all the fun that we had. lols.
night, we bbq-ed. had fun.
sebastian didi so good lahrs.
bbq for everybody lols.
practically all e boys were bbq-ing;
sebastian didi, jordan & jack.
except for e lazy bum, weiming.
was sitting &relaxing with us. =.=
lols. too much food that there's so many leftover.
we dump-ed almost all. ((:
10pm sharp, all e gers left!
damn smart to pang seh me there lohrs.
left me stranded with e boys, =.=
went over to mac to wait for my bro. lols.
he's fast lahrs. (:
home-ed rest, bathed, slept. TIRED!
it's a funfun day out! indeed it was! haas.

alrights, back to today. (:
been rotting at home e entire day.
chitchated with many ppl on fs (:
cloudie, toto, jeslyn. errs can't rmb lehrs.
msn was also flooded with conversations. haaas.
it's quite a busy day lahrs.
sms, phone calls, msn, friendster.
hmms, life should be liddis daily bahrs.
hope it'll be as busy as today ((:
tml will be having PSL2006 camp lehrs.
i dont think i'll be going bahrs. aikss.
held up with some problems,
that made me unable to attend it.
dont know if can dont attend this camp anot also.
hais. not yet inform e teachers also lohrs.
howhowhow?!?! ideas please. =.=

yeeeps* damn happy now. haaas.
later daddy bringing me go buy phone again!
heees. just bhot one on monday,
& now he's asking me to go again.
monday buy dehrs also not for me lahrs. ):
but today sure is for me, if have my liking.
still don't know what to buy leas. hais.
stoopid singapore! no more stock of 3250. hates!
now also dont know still can choose what lehrs.
N93 e stock also haven't come yet.
& daddy is rushing me to choose one phone. hais.
he's so impatient can.wtf.
another thing i'm happy about is.
gor is finally AWAKE! lols.
mei-fu&gor wake up liao. ((:
it's great okays. can think lehrs.
hope he'll cherish mei&saozi wors.
wish them last longlong xD
they're a sweet couple together (:
he thinks of her day & night leas.
he loves her as much as she does lohrs.
so sweet right? haaas. jiayou (:

P.S only if you've attended e bbq,
you understand what i'm talking about.
i certain lines. ((: lols.
GOD BLESS!

oh, btw; anybody interested to watch magic show?
advertising for yanling sweet monster. hees.
& peep do visit this forum, http://babybunny.70bb.com/
advertising for amelia dardar.
go there mus say is i advertise & intro you all go wan hohrs.
haaaaas. to prove that, i did advertise. haas. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY & JOLINE

ytd; had bbq at east coast park.
lols. it's damndamn 'fun' lahrs.
red ants & flies lohrs. eeeewwws.
toilets was so much cleaner than we expected.
had a dog talk from christopher. haaas.
it's fun talking to him lahrs.
envy him lohrs. stay opposite only.
everyday can go there dehrs. hais.
i cant bleaf what he said lahrs.
i'm so down on luck cans. he? my brother.
KNS lahrs. impossible lohrs. yucks. haaas. lols.
wanna know who's that person make me so suey?
ask me personally then.lols. HAAAAS!
left over with lots of food.
water activites, climbing activities,
lisiao activities. haaaas. was quite fun.
many pple back out thou.
eunice, sherilyn, huifen;
sebastian, rujing, afi, weiming, jordan & jack.
was there lols. funfunfun!
poor huifen lahrs hais.
phone spoil slipper lost. lols.
so kelian lohrs. all thanks to ...
thanks god she arrive home safely lahrs.
if not i will die dehrs lohrs,
cos nvr pei her home. xD
some pple would really murder me lohrs.
our bbq food were infested with flies.
yucksyucks. thanks to e boys.
night, everybody ps me lohrs.
sherilyn went home early.
eunice went home early.
weiming go sent huifen home.
then i was like thr, uhrs.
alone with e boys? lols.
thanks god my brother was fetching me lahrs.
went mac sat, waited for him lohrs.
i simply love sitting his car can.
sososo damn fast lahrs.
exceeding 120 with turbo alrights.
imagine how fast was that lahrs.
found eunice meimei a daddy & mummy. lols.
i find for her wan leas, & she nvr say thank you!
what a bad girl is she. heees.

today; went out.
met up with eileen cousin at jp.
i'm so early cans. haaas. finally.
shop around lahrs. spent 2hrs there.
pierce-d another ear hole again (:
it ain't pain anymore! yays.
gonna' pierce more with cousins ((:
omfg. dhen rushed to jec library.
didnt manage to borrow a book,
was too late lehrs.
so went ljs to eat & she went for her lessons.
train-ed home, realised my sister was behind my train.
lols, she took e next one haaas.
didnt bother to wait lahrs. so i went home.

p.s. people suggest me a phone to buy please.
just any phone at any price thats good & nice. (:

i've got another TWO surveys from eileen cousin.
the leen & lyn cousins. lols. ((:

full name? EMILYN PHANG JIA YI =.=

name backwards? iy aij gnahp nylime ; lols

meaning of name? absolutely no idea.

nickname? emi ... lols

screen name? EMILYN

date of birth? 27JANUARY1993

place of birth? singapore, mount elizaberth hospital.

nationality? singaporean

current location? batok.

star sign? aquarius

religion? =.= dots.

height? 155cm, as read from report book.

weight? 31kg, as read from report book.

shoe size? 4-7; lols.

hair color? black

eye colour? black

who do you look like? myself.

innie or outtie? don't know.

lefty or righty? lefty

gay, straight, bisexual or others? straight

best friend? don't wish to mention anymore.

best friend you trust most? amelia, rowena quite alot.

favourite pals? too many lehrs.

best friend of opposite sex? quite alot bahrs. ((:

best buddies? too many lehrs. xD

boyfriend or girlfriend? none.

crush? none

parents? huhs.

worst enemy? i forgot e name =x lols.

favourite guy online? no preference.

favourite girl online? practically all.

craziest friend? linhui. lols. sheila.

advice friend? amelia & rowena & nicholas.

loudest friend? SHEILA!

person you can cry with? ALONE.

any sister? yeas.

any brother? yeas.

any diseases? nopes.

pager? nahs.

personal phone line? yups.

phone? yahrs.

lava lamp? wants one.

pool or hot tub? pool

a car? dont have a license.

your personality? =.=

driving? e arcade ones.

room? duhs.

what's missing? alot of things around.

school? bukit view ss

bed? obviously!

relationship with parents? alrights.

believe in yourself? depends.

believe in love at first sight? yahrs.

good listener? i don't know.

get along well with your parents? depends.

save email conversations? msn yes. email no.

pray? uhrs, depends it's for who. =x

believe in reincarnation? depends.

make fun of people? sometimes.

like to talk on the phone? depends who's on the line.

want to get married? it's still far.

like to drive? yeas. i suppose.

motion sickness? sometimes.

eat the stem of a brocolli? yeas.

eat chicken with a fork? sometimes.

dream in colour? purple? lols.

type on your fingers with your home role? diaos.

sleep with stuff animals? nahhs.

next to you? air.

on the walls of you room? lights.

on your mousepad? mouse.

dream car? fairlady. mazda RX-8. subaru WRX.

dream date? dots.

dream honeymoon spot? japan, korea, italy.

dream husband/wife? just one that i love.

bedtime? anytime.

under you bed? air.

single most important question? huhs.

bad time of the day? teased, irritated, jealousy.

your worst fear? too many to list.

the weather? terribly humid.

time? 11.28am

date?8novemvber2006

best trick you did on someone? i dont rmb.

theme song? changes with mood.

hardest thing in growing up? dots.

most fun experiance? quite alot. (:

scariest experience? too many

silliest thing you've ever said? too many!

scariest thing when you're with your friends? BEING LI SIAO!!!

most desperate and funny thing done to get the attention of the opposite sex? =.=''

worst feeling in the world? "the world is beautiful, but i can't see it."

best feeling in the world? to be with the person you love.

the 6 lucky people whom i've chose to do this survey are:
eunice sister
huifen sister
yanling sweet monster
rowena bestie
anybody lahrs.

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Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. Don't read the questions below before you write and tag 5 people to do this survey.

#1 amelia dardar
#2 rowena bestie
#3 eunice sister
#4 jolyn sister
#5 sherilyn sister
#6 nadhirah
#7 eileen cousin
#8 judith cousin
#9 huifen sister
#10 baobei enen
#11 wanxin sister
#12 joey junior
#13 cloudie friend
#14 joy
#15 amanda madness
#16 angel freak!
#17 shanice
#18 yanling sweet monster
#19 peiqun
#20 jeanette haopengyou

how did you meet 14?
my bus-mate.

what would you do if you never meet 1?
i'd be dead. she understands me BEST!

what would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
they ain't les!

would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
they ain't les!

describe 3.
madness!

do you think 8 is attractive?
yups. she's my baobei cousin leas. ((:

say something about 7.
quiet & mad

do you know any of 12's family members?
nahhs.

what's 8's favourite?
too many.

what would you do if 11 confesses that he/ she likes you?
lols. she's my baobeii jiejie leas. i wont mind. haaas

what language does 15 speak?
english

who is 9 going out with?
uhrs. *** *** ****

how old is 16 now?
thirteen.

when was the last time u talk to 13?
e day before ytd.

who's 2's favourite band/ singer?
i don't know.

would you date 7?
lols. want also cnt. haaas. she's my cousin lahrs.

is 15 single?
yahrs

what's 10's last name?
yingen

would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
lols. serious sister relationship bahrs.

what school does 3 go to?
peps & bvss

where does 6 live?
around batok new cc thr.

what's your favourite thing about 5?
crazy lahrs

hav u seen 1 naked?
no lahrs. =.=

5 people whom you wants to do this.
huifen sister
yanling sweet monster xD
anybody lohrs

finally done with both surveys lehrs.
spent quite a long time bahrs.
lols. gotta' rush out now lehrs.
meeting eileen cousin. heees.
out to study at e library lahrs.
gotta' mug next year. ((:

just gotten a survey from both my eunice & huifen sisters.
shall do huifen's wan first. lols.
since eunice didn't tell me either. lols haaas.

ten favourites-
Favourite colours: purpur, black, white, green, red.
Favourite food: sweeets. (:
Favourite song: currently, 梁山伯与茱丽叶
Favourite movies: the convenant, sinking of japan.
practically action, comedy, horror, geographical. (:
Favourite sport: basketball & volleyball
Favourite season: winter & autumn
Favourite day of the week: no preferences.
Favourite ice-cream flavour: strawberry!

nine currents-
Current mood: sad, about the msg. happy, about i don't know.
Current clothes: shirt & shorts
Current desktop: urban features
Current toe nail colour: natural.
Current surroundings: music & rain & air
Current thought: sisters, baobeis, him (:

eight first-
First bestfriend: the four sisters. jasmine, jaclyn, kaiqing.
(OUR PRIMARYONE TIMES)
shanice; OUR NURSERY DAY!
First crush: (:
First movie: don't remember.
First piercing: kindergarden year one.
First music: can't remember.
First car: daytona USA, at the arcade. lols.

seven last-
Last cigaretter: secrets. (:
Last drink: A&W root beer.
Last car ride: saturday.
Last crush: secrets. =Pp
Last movie i had seen: the convenant
Last phone call: eunice sister
Last cd: i don't play CDs; but MP3s

six have you ever-
Have you ever date one of your bestfriend: yups. (:
Have you ever broken the law: yahrs.
Have you ever been arrested: almost.
Have you ever kiss someone that you don't know: i think i did. (: lols

five things you're wearing:
shirt; shorts; earing; spectacles; nail polish? =.=

four things you have done today:
eating, watching tv, blogging, hear songs.

three things you hear right now:
the rain, 梁山伯与茱丽叶, the thunder.

two things you can't live without:
there's too many! air! water! money! phone! him? =Pp

one thing you do when you're bored:
blog continuously? chat simultanuously? sms? too many.
cos i'm always bored to death; daily.

now the five persons to tag:
eileen cousin
jolyn sister
yanling sweet monster
joey junior
judith cousin

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Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head. *three of which must be the opposite sex* After that tag at least 5 people to do this.

#1 eileen cousin
#2 jolyn sister
#3 eunice sister
#4 olivia sister
#5 hweekoon sister
#6 sherilyn sister
#7 sebastian brother
#8 weiming friend
#9 george friend
#10 enen baobei
#11 yanling sweet monster

1. How did you met 10?
she's my baobei, e day she's born i knew her.
her mom was met at school with me!(:

2. What would you do if you never met 02?
no fun! she's the great cranker!

3. What would you do if o9 & 11 dated?
HUHS! 11 is fifteen! & 09 is thirteen! impossible. lols
whats more, they don't even know each other.

4. Do you like o7?
duhs. he's my baobei didi leas. (:

5. Would o5 & o6 make a good couple?
they ain't les.

6. Describe 3.
quiet, rebellious at times, learning to fight. haaas.

7. Do you think o8 is attractive?
attractive??!?! must say yes bahrs, if not later SHE come find me.
lols. haaaas. SHE'LL murder me to death. lmaos.

8. Tell me something about o4.
she's the bestest sister i could ever have.
she's too straight forward at times,
which could have hurt people around her alot.

9. What is o1's favourite colour?
i don't know leas. =x

10. What is o5's favourite things?
i don't know also. =x

11. What would you do if 1o confesses he/she likes you?
lols. that's great. cos i love her too. haaas. xD

12. What language does o6 speaks?
english & chinese.

13. Who is o9 going out with?
i don't know, he won't say.

14. How old is o8 now?
thirdteen. duhs.

15. When is the last time you talk to o1?
saturday night? (:

16. What is o2's favourite band/singer?
she's fine with any singer.

17. Would you ever date o7?
huhs!?!? he's my baobei didi leas. lmaos.

18. Would you ever date 11?
lols. she's my master aka sweet monster. haas.

19. Have you ever seen o8 naked?
=.= not interested. lmaos.

5 People whom you want to pass this on;
eileen cousin
huifen sister
yanling sweet monster
jolyn sister
ANYBODY! (:

last night baobei came over. lalaas.
mummy bhot her clothes. (:
seems so small, yet still big for her.
haaas. she so cute cans.
longlong nvr see her lehrs,
she has grown so much lehrs.
become smarter liao haaas.
took some pictures of her again.
























the lovely little girl, you ever want to know. (:























she's the girl, always the girl. lovees. (:























the baobei, the one everybody lovees. (: (her mouth)


i kept on reading e msg, time & again.
till i could really memorise it.
i don't why either.
all i knew was, it meant SO much to me.
perhaps, you won't know either.

anyways, really have to thank ...
you're always e one making me smile,
laugh once again. thanks.
you're always there for me lahrs.
you always don't know whats wrong,
but somehow; your timing is always right.
seems like whenever i'm sad.
you're always here to make me happy. lols.
thanks alot. haaas. you really brighten up my day.
thou it was just for that moment of happiness.
it's alr more than enough. heees. (:

rotting at home once again.
still considering if i shall go for e bbq.
cos i really don't know. hais.
all i know now is; I WANT TO GO JP.
i don't know why either.
it's been a long time, i've seen e siaocharbo.
all of a sudden just want go there see if she's there.
but i doubt so. lols.
that's e only place i could really relax,
& forget everything that's happening in batok.
years down the road, find me in Dragonfly.
e place where i'd hang out, haaas.
the real place i could relax. (:

you ppl are making me so jealous alrights.
letting me see your photos at Dragonfly.
wonder when's e time i could go there lahrs.
i want to go there too. bring me there alrights.
haaas. few years down the road, i'll wait!
Dragonfly, wait for me. lols. LAME!

alrights, stayed at home e entire day.
was in a foul mood. still i put on e best smile,
i could ever have lahrs.
ate lots of food. as much as i could.
i couldn't care less, all in my mind was;
I'M SAD! you won't know why.
received the sms, made me felt worst.
e worst day of my entire life.
perhaps, i won't be going to e bbq anymore.
or maybe i'm but a while bahrs.
my mood ain't that top this days.
trying so hard to get e best of it.
forgive me if i ain't at e fullest on tuesday.
you ought to be happy by now,
that i won't interfere your life forever.

(it's what i wanted to post just now)
i've just received an sms.
an sms that's very important;
very very very important to me.
i'll rmb it for life. i don't know.
you won't know how important it was too me.
you won't know how much it meant to me.
you won't know how much it hurt me.
you won't know how i felt deeply about it.
i shan't mention anyways.
was sad upon reading it, yeas.
but at e current,
i don't wish to explain anything to anyone at all.
i don't know whats wrong either lehrs.
i totally have no mood at all lehrs.
need time to calm down bahrs.
as she requested from me too.
i just feel like letting all e misunderstanding go on.
just don't want to say e truth.
; no point explaining if right from the start was not being trusted.
wanxin; it's you who don't want to explain.
it's not that i don't trust you alrights.
i give time okays. takecares.
(that's all)

this is a special post for her,
for the sake of her, yeas YOU!
fine! i admit is me lahrs, you happy alr?
okay lohrs, you say don't wan nameless pple dhen fine lahrs.
i extra lahrs okays.
i from today onwards don't tag your blog lohrs,
happy alr mahrs. should be happy enough hohrs.
i've nvr say i know everything right.
all you did was malign me,
or issit me. well i'd better say is i malign you bahrs!
later you say i talk cock again lohrs.
okay lahrs. is me yahr so?
extra? then i talk to you using my big bold names,
you got reply mahrs? no hohrs.
then you wan me do what ahrs?
i'm tring so hard alr okays.
you don't know so many things,
& there you are saying me lahrs.
opps, is i saying you things hohrs!
fine lahrs, i leave out of your world lahrs.
happy enough. give you peace lahrs.
right from e start is you nvr trust me lohrs.
dhen okays lahrs, now i say what also no use.
you confirm will say i wan you pity me or whatsoever lohrs.
forget it lahrs, ask you disown me you don't wan.
dhen you so xinku for what?
so tired hohrs? disown lahrs. aiyas.
i try so hard leas, you?
ohhs, is you try so hard! i forget.
i'm e one not trying at all lahrs.
i'm e one not getting facts right, talking cock huhs.
isn't it what you're trying to say?
well well, FINE! whatever.
you want me say right into your face?
i want to face you & talk out lehs.
then is you run away lahrs,
what you wan me do?
jump down catch you & die ahrs?
ask me don't die dhen why you run?
so no preparation, okay lahrs fine.
talk to you on msn like siansian wan.
don't wan talk say lahrs. aiyas.
then i tag your blog also cnt,
tag his also cnt. you want me do what?
ask you things also don't wan say.
what can i do. isn't this e only way.
have you spare a thot for me before mahrs?
i don't think so lahrs. i know you're stubborn,
that's e reason why i've been trying so hard.
& there you are, stubborn; misunderstood all of them.
you think they're helping me?
no. is you. they know you've been troubled,
about this. so they all want it to be solved.
that's why they chose to help for e better.
make life easier is better for all.
don't you ever think anot? have anot?
don't have i tell you now lahrs. know everything alr mahrs?
clear enough for you alr?
OKAYS, I'LL LEAVE OUT OF YOUR WORLD,
EVERYBODY'S WORLD FROM TODAY OKAYS?
issit enough for you?
enough to make you HAPPY alr?
just want you to say e truth,
& we'll all solve it together as one.
it's you being stubborn not wanting to say everything.
hais. please, be happy.
i have nothing to say anymore.

a total fucked up parents i have now.
well, i fucking don't bother either.
don't want to pay for my food,
oh well; fine thens.
it's not like i ain't got any money. oh ohs.

went out to buy my bbq things in the morning;
skipped tuition. wakakas.
was damndamn tired after ytd's movie lahrs.
watched the convenant with my sister.
lols, cinema was flooded.
pple kept strolling in, soon it was full. haas.
first time full lahrs. lmaos.

















raced home with her after the movie.
lols, we walked & ran. hahas. lame.
up the hills & mountains, thru the slopes.
& back home. hahas. tired out lahrs.
I WON!!! *woots. (:

did my medicure today! lalaas. happy ohrs.
it's STRAWBERRY! hees.
kind of weird lahrs. a little ugly.
cos of e colors. BLEAPS!
but still, i love it.
maybe night gonna' dye my hair purpur! heeees.

i'm damn fucking sian lahrs.
could hardly find someone to go out with me, daily.
lols. who could? haaaas.
everybody's either fucking busy with work,
or else their parents don't allow.
& yeas, talking about work;
job interview failed lahrs.
was talk junks & gibberings lahrs.
dumb fucking ass lohrs. haaaas.
nvm, now i need a job or i'll rot to death.
i'm damndamn fucking bored lahrs.
don't mind e pay at all lahrs. just want to kill time.
hehs. find one for me please. lmaos. (:

just came back from westmall agains.
yeas, went with eunice mei again.
arghhs, morning was kind of fucked up with some pple.
was being kind & what;
give me your fucking attitude. oh, wtf.
you're always liddat lahrs. makes me mad.
decided not to talk about the person anymore.
no longer. haaas. hope can lahrs. (:
DETERMINATION ohrs.
} back. went to buy e bbq stuff & blahs.
later gg to grangpa shop heees.
gg to take all e utensils from him. hehs.
bhot manymany things lahrs.
spent about $100 lahrs.
for household & bbq. haaas.

night, gg to watch movie with my sister again.
lols, watching convenant lahrs. heees.
nicenice movie lahrs. ((:
hope my wish come true again ohrs.
don't think it will happen again lahrs.
no longer lehrs bahrs.
previous 2 midnight movies,
both also happened lehrs.
will it happen again this time?
i doubt so. no longer happening anymore.
so i don't pin too high hopes this time.
yeas, but still; i hope it'd happen.
hahas. wish it will lahrs. (:
; you should know what i meant. (((:

在试着去接受被爱的感觉
: i'm really tired lehrs. tired of everything.
it's too tired for me to communicate with you always.
you always seem near, yet far.
i know this is so wrong. but do i have a choice.
i once said no matter what happen,
i'll 撑下去. yeas, no matter what.
but now, i think i can't really tired.
you're always lying lahrs.
trusted you time & again.
in the end, i'm e one being fooled.
you always never change lahrs. hais.
say you would. but didn't.
& i knew you're always denying facts lahrs.
i didn't say anything also lohrs.
till today i'm really mad lehrs. couldn't stand anymore.
but, i still wait. waiting for you to say again.
once more, & i'll really believe you.
thou you've said many time. heeees. once more?
would you be e one mahrs? haaaas.

met up with eunice meimei at 1pm.
was late lols. haaas. paisehs.
cos was addicted to mygirl hehs.
went cinema watch sinking of japan.
damndamn nice cans.
lovees e digital effect so much lohrs.
especially e volcano part haas.
nice movie lahrs. worth it to watch.
e two heroes. hees. yuki & don't know who.
lols. really a nicenice movie lahrs. hehs.

dhen went arcade play daytona.
so many pple playing lohrs.
spent time waiting & waiting haaaas.
thens, went home alr lahrs.
fucking weather. was waiting to rain lahrs.
& it didn't. oh, wtf.
wonder who's praying not to rain. heees.
i wanna watch so many movies sia. hais.
don't know who can one time watch so many movies with me.
confirm nobody can wan lahrs. =.=

hais, has been having flu nearly a week lehrs.
seeming like i'm unable to attend e bbq lehrs.
hais. hope still can go lahrs.
should be must go lohrs, haaas.
cos need my verification lmaos.
; knew the outcome right from the start.
but i still chose this path.
} you should know clearly why by now.

happyhappy day ohrs. hehs.
slept at 1156 last night.
lols, supposingly was to wait for e clock to strike twelve.
but, wells; fell asleep lehrs. haas.
woke about about 9am in e morning lahrs.
was being disturb by a lame sms. hehs.
prepared at 11am.
dhen went westmall to meet baobei meimei.
lols. went to buy e snacks & sweeets.
called jolyn dajie. haaaas.
ask her to go along also. lols.
her mother everything also no dehrs.
sososo bad nehrs. hais.
gave her mom e invitation card,
for e bbq. lols. lame lahrs.
dhen took 945 home lahrs.
tired lahrs. haaaaas.
it's raining terribly lohrs. sad.

i'm effin' bored nehrs.
hais, nobody's online to chat also.
everybody's out for their wonderful chalet.
mine's gotta' wait longlong.
& we haven't got e food yet also.
will get soon dehr lahrs.
don't worry pple. haaaaas.
will get my maid to buy ASAP. lmaos.

hope tml can go out with baobei meimei again ohrs.
lovees her lots haaaaas.

lols, everybody's excited about 1E5 bbq. hehs. me too nehrs.